NOW I LAY ME DOWN TO SLEEP

Now I lay me down to sleep,
In deep sorrow my heart does sink.
For all the things that I've done wrong,
In my heart there sings no song.
Tears of regret soak my pillow at night,
And continuous into the morning light.
People tell me what's past is past,
But I can't help it.
I feel like trash.
How could I have missed the signs?
I just wish I could turn back the hands of time.
With every smack and every welt,
I wish I would have called for help.
I just felt so scared and trapped,
Each time I questioned him about something he would snap.
So I decided to make a plan,
That the bottle would be my new best friend.
It worked for awhile until the bad got worse,
I hid my feelings deep inside until I thought I would burst.
I couldn't stand one more day with his ex,
I knew what I had to do next.
I finally had the courage to leave him that day,
And life is sweeter without him,
No longer will he stand in my way.
Now I am trying to pick up the pieces of my broken heart and dreams,
Life's not as easy as it seems.
I struggle to make a brand new start,
People tend to remind me of what I've done,
And it just breaks my heart.
With help from God and my faithful friends,
My heart will heal and I will rise in the end.
So as I lay me down again,
I pray thee Lord my heart you'll mend.
In your time and at your pace,
Until I see you face to face.